Wednesday, March 5, 2008


God hath not promised
Skies always blue,
Flower~strewn pathways
All our lives through
God hath not promised
Sun without vain,
Joy without sorrow,
Peace without pain.

But God hath promised
Strength for the day,
Rest for the laborer,
Light on the way,
Grace for the trial,
Help from above,
Unfailing sympathy,
Undying love.

Last week was Charlie's first week of chemo... he had to stay in the hospital for five days. I would go to work and then to the hospital as soon as I would get off at 10:00 a.m. I would stay with him as long as I could, coming home anywhere from 10:30 to 11:00. I thought that I would be able to rest when Charlie got home... not so. He is weak. His weight is down to 146 lbs. It is breaking my heart. I feel as if someone has taken it and ripped it into two. I don't know how to explain the pain I feel in my chest. It really hurts. I have been sleeping on the couch next to his recliner. I find myself just watching him sleep when I can not. I miss my husband.

Charlie had another chemo at the Doctor's office Tuesday. His temperature shot over 103. It scared me and wore him out even more. Charlie will be home for two weeks and then back in the hospital for one, out for two and continue to do this for a total of four cycles. The Doctor faxed over a prescription that will help increase his appetite. We have been told that won't kick in for two weeks. He is whithering away to nothing before my eyes.

I thank God for each brand new day (as it means one more day closer to him getting rid of the cancer ~ I am thinking positive!) and the little tasks my husband can still accomplish. Those little tasks he can do make him feel very good.


  1. Hello Sweet Angela: The ladies loved on you this morning in words and prayers ~~ You are so missed.

    We will stay optimistic with you ~ and tell Charlie to keep that "French" sense of humor!!!

    :) LOL
    Wanda Mom

  2. Angela,
    I know all to well what you are feeling. I keep the whole of your family in my prayers each day. You know that I am here if you need me. I miss your posts but know that you need to do just what you are doing right now.
    Hang in there,

  3. Dear Angela,

    I spoke with your Dad and your Papa and Nana Garcia last night (and even your uncle Joe) and asked them to continue to help God watch over Charlie and your family.
    I know Nana and Papa are staying close to their beautiful first grandchild too.
    I hope you feel all our love, still there with you, still praying and keeping faith.
    Another weekend coming up; relax and enjoy each other.

  4. keep the positive thoughts! I know the rest of the family is and continue prayers for all of you

    love always

  5. I've got you guys in my prayers. I'm praying big. I'm praying, believing. I'm glad you have good people to be physically present with you. Wish I could be one of them.

    Love you TONS.

  6. Thanks so much for the package and your friendship. Remember you never walk alone. Love ya,

  7. I am sending you both all my strength and remembering you in my prayers. You are in my thoughts, and like you I have every faith in Charlie's complete recovery.
    Thank you for the beautiful butterfly card. I value your friendship too sweet lady..

  8. You put truth to that poem.

    My name is Angie. I decided to visit you from Wanda's place. I'm joining in prayer for your Charlie and for you dear one. God bless you both with healing, help, grace, and strength.

  9. sending you love and prayers ... much love

  10. Thank you for the update. I was wondering what is going on. I will pray for you, too!
    You are a good wife. That's why it hurts. You love your husband, you became one flesh and that's why the love songs talk about 'heart ache' when they talk about broken love or love's problems. Your heart aches for him.
    I know that feeling, too.
    Hang in there! You are not alone.