NeRvOuS

This week has been extremely quiet in our home. Today we are supposed to find out what the results of Charlie's scan is. As the hour nears ~ I am nervous. I want to know... but I don't. On one hand if the results come back showing cancer is still there, we will need to know what course of action that needs to be taken. Time should not be ticking and nothing being done in a situation like this. On the other hand, well it is great news. For now. I have come to realize that this is and will be a part of our lives; the testing ~ worrying ~ waiting for it to come back. In this realization, I refuse to let this get the best of us. We will live each day to the fullest being joyful that we are here in the present... together. Taking one day at a time. I am prepared to having some days that it will get to me. All the while knowing what my focus will be. I will not let cancer waist our days in fear.

Whatever the outcome, I know things will be all right. We will have love.