Sunday, April 20, 2008

and the dam broke...

Charlie felt well enough to sleep in our bed. I helped him to get situated to where he was comfortable. I went around the bed and got into it very carefully. I laid there and was trying to be still so that the bed wouldn't jar him. I took a deep breath ~ slowly inhaled and then slowly exhaled. He whispered, "Come closer." I said, "I don't want to hurt you." He said, "You won't. Come close." I moved over gently and laid my head on his shoulder. All I could feel was his shoulder cap... the bones. He whispered, "I miss you." I whispered, "I miss you too." I laid there and a tear went down the side of my face... He whispered, "It's okay." Before I knew it, I couldn't hold the tears back. It was as if the dam broke. There was no stopping them or controlling them. They just kept flowing. He just held me, stroking my hair and whispered as I wept, "It's okay to cry Mia. It's okay." I cried until there weren't any tears left... he whispered, "I am going to get better." I whispered, "I know."


  1. i'm not sure what to write.
    this brought tears to my eyes.

    sending you much love,

    xox silvia

  2. I agree with the both of you. He is going to get better. Next year at this time, it will be a long ago memory.

    The special love and strong bond that is being created will always be with you. Together you can do anything.

    Thanks for sharing.


  3. this post brought tears to my eyes
    because I know you both so well.
    I agree with Jeanne together you two can do anything. and soon we as a family will have so much to celebrate!

    Love you my sweet

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  5. You both are in my thoughts and prayers. What a precious moment that you two shared. I can feel the love in your post. You are so brave.

  6. I have emailed you..
    big hugs

  7. What a beautiful post, so full of love and more love. Every now and then it is good for the dam to break and let those feelings out together.
    Sending you both lots of healing energy and positive thoughts.

  8. Thanks for writing this. Very touching. I pray for him whenever I pray.

  9. "I am going to get better." AMEN! I'm claiming that for both of you. You are constantly in my prayers. Wish I could be there to hug you in person.

    Thank you for sharing this with us.