and the dam broke...

Charlie felt well enough to sleep in our bed. I helped him to get situated to where he was comfortable. I went around the bed and got into it very carefully. I laid there and was trying to be still so that the bed wouldn't jar him. I took a deep breath ~ slowly inhaled and then slowly exhaled. He whispered, "Come closer." I said, "I don't want to hurt you." He said, "You won't. Come close." I moved over gently and laid my head on his shoulder. All I could feel was his shoulder cap... the bones. He whispered, "I miss you." I whispered, "I miss you too." I laid there and a tear went down the side of my face... He whispered, "It's okay." Before I knew it, I couldn't hold the tears back. It was as if the dam broke. There was no stopping them or controlling them. They just kept flowing. He just held me, stroking my hair and whispered as I wept, "It's okay to cry Mia. It's okay." I cried until there weren't any tears left... he whispered, "I am going to get better." I whispered, "I know."