Ulterior Motive

pumpkin patch

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and although I should be baking pies, I am procrastinating. I have a bit of trouble with the pie crust. I refuse to buy the "already made" simply because both of my grandmother's and my mom never did (okay, one of my grandma's did, though I am not saying who, but I saw how my daddy protested against this and it has stuck with me ever since). I never know how my pie's will turn out, but nonetheless they are made with love. Last year, I can sorta remember crying and maybe a curse word or two were involved. They did get made though.

I find myself looking forward to this holiday of Thanksgiving and have plenty of reasons for feeling this way.

1. It was always my dad's favorite holiday and probably the only holiday I didn't hear him grumble about. It was truly about getting together and spending time with one another. My family would have some serious (but not heated) debates about different topics that were going on in the world at that time. We would also play games and laugh into the night. There was always a good balance and growing up, I was always aware of it.

2. I always reflect on the year at this time and count my blessings. I am truly thankful to God for my husband. I am thankful for His grace and Mercy above all else. There was a time when I didn't think I would have my husband for one more week let alone through the holidays. I am also thankful that my daughter is so much like her dad. I have watched her fight her way to get better with her eating disorder. She wants very badly to be healthy in her mind, body and soul. If she keeps this up, I have no doubt she will get there.

3. I am looking forward to getting together with my family. On the other hand, I also can not wait for this Thanksgiving to be over with. I have to tell myself not to rush this holiday to get to the next. I don't want to miss the reason for this season. I am so thankful.

So this is where I feel a secret ulterior motive is settling in. Everyone knows that it is count down from Thanksgiving to Christmas. You see, our son and beautiful daughter in-law will be coming home for Christmas this year. It has been way too long since I have seen him... a year in a half to be exact. Charlie can not wait either. We have all longed for this moment and we are all getting antsy with anticipation. I find myself getting a little emotional with many feelings stirring inside me.

Note~ click on my very first photo collage (oh my goodness, this was so much fun). There are bee's on the flowers!