Saturday, November 29, 2008

I Believe


I have to smile every time I look at this photo. There has been a softness about Charlie since his cancer. Just like this for instance, he would have never rolled up his pants wearing his boots, let alone walk around like that in his pre-cancer days. I see him doing little things like this all of the time now.

In the last two c-scans since Charlie has stopped his chemo, the scans showed that there were two spots on his spine. They suspected that it was
bony metastasis (which I thought was just a fancy way of saying that he had arthritis), but also noted that it had not grown in the second of the two scans. The first scan, it went over my head. I was more focused on his cancer and what was going on with that. The second scan, I read, re-read and didn't like what had been noted about "it" (the spots) had not grown.
I decided to google some of the words that I didn't understand. One being
bony metastasis. My heart sank upon my readings. In his last routine appointment, we mentioned to our Doctor that Charlie was still experiencing a great deal of pain. Charlie has had a bone scan and it did show something and now they want to do an MRI. The MRI was scheduled the 14Th of November. Although we were called in the late morning of that day, letting us know that the machine had broke. Our next appointment has been scheduled a little over a week from now.

It is good that we are getting this done and we will know once and for all what these spots are. If it has spread to his bones then we will deal with it. If it is arthritis... that is to be treated accordingly.

I have been trying my best not to give this any energy and to look at the positive outcome either way. When the MRI was canceled, Charlie and I both felt as if it had drained us. We were both holding on to this date (of his first MRI) and knew very shortly we would know once and for all. As best as we have been trying to deal with this, it just showed us that on some level it is affecting us.

I believe in the power of prayer.

Send a prayer for Charlie.

What Is Bone Metastasis?


  1. Oh my dear, you have our thoughts and prayers.

    Love the picture of Charlie... That's a keeper for sure. Reminds me of a "Norman Rockwell".

    My Sunday Meditation deals with the "What If" and you are facing that now.... I pray a calm heart for you and C.

    Love and Hugs
    Wanda Mom

  2. My Sweets

    you and Charlie always have our prayers and love that is never ending

    hugs to you all


  3. Sending love.
    You're in my thoughts.


  4. Prayers and positive energy are coming your way in large quantities.

    Let Charlie know that his fashion statement is a fantastic one.

    Keep up your good works.

  5. Oh, Angela,
    YOu have my thoughts and I've prayed for both of you so often, but I'll keep nagging God about Charlie. I want to see renal cancers stopped.

    Our love isn't much compared to God's love, but you both have mine. I'm praying for Charlie.

    XO,XO,XO to the tenth power!

  6. my thoughts and prayers are with you and Charlie. When two or more pray... love the photo

  7. as far as the picture, yes, I changed the same way after my stroke. not sure why. I guess it's because you see how short life can be and what's really important. :)

  8. I am new here! What a great blog! ♥ Hugs!

  9. Angela,

    I'm praying for all of you! I know firsthand how worriesome all this waiting and not knowing can be and over a month ago had feared my own cancer was back but thankfully it was just a horrible kidney infection. Stay strong!


  10. warm loving prayer thoughts, xo

  11. Sending lots of positive thoughts and love to you and Charlie. Let us all hold onto hope for you both.

  12. Charlie is also on my prayer list!

  13. Sweetheart,
    God is with you and Charlie always and we all are right there behind him.

    Much respect and love.

  14. It is the season of hope. Believe it will all be alright.

  15. Yes I definitely believe in the power of prayer. Sending you lots.