Thursday, June 12, 2008
Castles in the Sand
As I laid on the beach with my friend, she had noticed that I was in a far away place and asked me where I was. I shared with her that I was there on the beach, but in a different time. My husband was playing horse shoes with his friends, occasionally glancing over my way to get a look at me and then flashing me with his Matthew McConaughey smile. I would then be interrupted with one of my kids calling for my undivided attention, "MOM! Look at me! Look what I can do!" and another one following with, "Mom! Look at the neat sand castle I made!" I would also make sure that I slathered sunscreen on every inch of their bodies, asking them if they needed something to eat or drink. I couldn't help but feel sad as I drifted with the breeze of memories and knew too well with where I was in the present. I was feeling lonely and couldn't believe how much had changed. We had some good times on that beach, and it went by too fast. Although I was grateful for the time I was spending with my girlfriend, who was sensitive to my feelings and treated them with great care, what I would have given to go back in time. I had to think of the positive, there will be more good times. In the future, I was also hopeful that I would be taking walks on the beach with my girls (Diandra and Nessa giggle ~ not the dogs), combing it for shells, talking about life and how it was treating us. I also knew that someday, I will be with my grand-children, building castles in the sand.