Wednesday, September 10, 2008
mom's bird house ~ setting it free
I fly above the trees. Care I less who sees.
I am free, controls on me can not be. I fly beyond, as far as you can see.
To walk upon the ground. I would not be found.
I glide tireless on air currents above. You shall never call me dove.
Hear my scream if you come near. The sound of freedom many men fear.
Who am I? The Eagle most men never see. I am your spirit, set free.
by james smith
Recently my daughter Diandra visited her brother in Nebraska and I was alone for a week. When I say "alone" I am talking about not having any of my kids with me. It was an emotional week and it wasn't because she was gone, It was because of where I was at in my life. It was a time for me to be very honest and I found myself having to face a lot of fears that I have had for some time. I got used to pushing them aside, down and anywhere I could put them so that I didn't have to deal with them. This last month I looked at each one of them that came up right in the face. I moved through those feelings and came out on the other side. On that other side I had some new insights. What happened next was really unexpected. I found that I had transformed into a higher version of myself, a more authentic version of who I really am. This new insight even made me feel grateful for that painful experience because I liked who I grew to be because of it. Facing your fears enables you to rid yourself of buried emotions. By coming to face-to-face with what you are afraid of, you are able to free yourself. You also offer yourself an opportunity to grow from the experience. In the end, you may discover you like YOU not in spite of what happened to you but because of what happened to you. We often wish to overcome our fears and the things that stop us. Yet that is not an easy process, nor one which will come and go quickly... for our fears are deeply ingrained in everything we do. However it is in the very act of stepping into new territories... new dances... in facing our fears and weaknesses... in addressing them that we begin the changing process. Love of something that we long for or need more than our fears is what makes change possible.
I am feeling stronger than I have in a long time.